maintaining goals I have set for myself has always been a struggle with me. I don't want to think of myself as lazy (though I'm not ruling it out), but I find it incredibly hard to do something without a payoff. The things I do do for money I end up inevitably resenting due to the monotony of it, and any time I try to do something for myself, I tend to just lose passion in it, leaving myself just disappointed in myself.

The biggest issue is that I hate doing nothing even more, but I just can't seem to bring myself to do anything except for one or two week bursts.

list of things I am working on.

this blog.
another blog about video games.
writing fiction.
writing lyrics for a musical im only supposed to be "helping with", but am doing most of the work anyway. itll probably be canned.
helping family with home renovations.

i always get way in over my head :\

So today I started posting some of my fictional stories on a website. I suppose you could classify it as "fan fiction", but, shit, I need to practice with my literary prose before I work on anything that's my idea (I have lots of 'em). Here's hoping I can get summon the willpower to finish writing the whole damn thing. So far I've got like thirty pages in open office and I feel like I havn't even scratched the surface. Needless to say, thirty pages isn't much, but I feel like it could end up being four hundred if I write it all. GUUUUH.

The refrigerator started making hollow ice cubes. I know I should fix it, but it's too awesome.

Experiencing a piece of art created by a friend is a really humbling experience.

I introduced my family to dubstep

every day I'm becoming a worse person.

Jokes #1

Sometimes I think of jokes, but I often forget them. I think now would be a good time to write them down and share them, since, I really don't care about being a stand up comedian. I can't promise you these will be funny, or non-offensive, or even original... I mean, they're original as far as I know, but I can't cross reference them with every joke that's been said. It'll be a numbered series as I remember them or they come to me.

"Does anyone else think we need a new name for World War 2? I mean, WW1, that was the shit right there. The Great War, The War to End All Wars, THE World War... but WW2? Sounds like a quick cash-in sequel. It even feels like one too, I mean, in World War 1 it was all so complex, and at least there was some ambiguity, some gray area... but WW2? A black and white good guys vs bad guys story."